sometimes
2007-07-29 god fucking dammit

i may have had my first panic attack. i just got really overwhelmed by all this. it's too much for one person at one time. i am going to search for a therapist this week. i feel also overwhelmed at the prospect of going to this job interview tomorrow morning, but i'm hoping i get it together by then. and in all desperations of desperations i called my mom to cancel her plans and come with me to put my apartment back together (ikea - panic attack central on its own), and clean up my apartment for my new roommate, and basically babysit me. i never ever in my life felt like do not want to be alone. this fucking sucks.

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