sometimes
2009-05-28 next time

she's asking me to let her go, and not to hold on to thinking that she might come back to me this time. she's not ready to move forward with me. and she's leaving the country again for at least a year. i'm so torn about whether this is for the best or so so wrong. she's not leaving for a month and we're still going to have some time together. it's going to be bittersweet. i can already tell. sometimes i torture myself a little in this relationship. and i know it. and i still do it. i have to think about how to work on that for next time. it's torture but it feels like the right thing to do. so it's confusing.

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