someone should have warned me that the difficulty of a serious breakup really lasts for quite a while, this i don't think i was so prepared for
and when the person that you relied on most is the person that you are now broken up with it makes it all the more difficult
and when you are worried (justifiably or not) for that person's safety that adds to the hardness of said breakup
and when you can't talk to said person without getting upset that in addition adds to such difficulty
in conclusion, this is not fun for me

in other news, i'm having an oscar party. any minneapolitans are welcome to come. any out of towners too! it will be a smashing success.