sometimes
2008-11-18 however long

i hear you say and have heard you say that you want me to feel more secure and act more secure in this relationship but it's not just my insecurities getting in the way because just when i start to feel secure you up and go again. it's not just my stuff. but i am going to work on dealing with it better. this is a hard hard hard thing to deal with again. i don't want to go back in any way. and it is scary thinking about being in a relationship with you again while you are so far away for so long. what if you change your mind again? i don't want to break up over the phone again. you need to know for sure that you want to see this through. you want me and our relationship to be there when you come back. you have to know for sure now because i can't just hope and then get a call 2 months in. or however long.

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